“The bleuet de France is the symbol of memory for, and solidarity
with, veterans, victims of war, widows, and orphans …”—Wikipedia
Reading my grandfather’s letters home, 1945,
I learn that he saw Madame Butterfly in Paris,
after the war, that there was enough of him left
to feel the rain and realize the lapse since he’d last
laughed. The same day, I read online about a new
color of blue going into a box of crayons. As if
there is a lapse in the tints of sad made available
to our children so that they might be able to draw
the world. Brighter than cobalt, robin’s egg,
cerulean and sky. Bluetiful. I think of the blue
morpho butterfly, it’s scopic wingspan, flinch-bright,
it’s underside camouflaged drab, but still nearing
extinct. Oh, America the bluetiful. Why not name the color
thoughts & prayers. A blue not allowed to rest, bright
as in blood before it stains. The cold rain on my grandfather’s
face. I used to wonder why the average German man did
nothing to stop such unspeakable horrors. I know now, what
little can be done. So, I will buy this new color for my son
and tell him all is not lost, see—we have given you a way to
fluent tragedy. In your hands, it might morph it into something
almost beautiful, but mostly blue.
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